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He’s hurting me bad Lord…very bad.


And I want to hurt him too.

I want to hurt him so much that people would wonder what he has done

to warrant so much pain and hurt.

But you keep holding me back.

You keep holding me back, and it hurts.

It hurts to not be able to visit some hurt and pain on him too.

It hurts to not be able to go ahead and do the things I want to do to hurt

him, and make him know how it feels to be hurt.

It hurts to not be able to show him that he’s not the only one with power

and connections.

It hurts to not be able to wield my own form of power against him.

Oh, it hurts to not be able to hurt him back.

I keep wondering;

Why is it ok for him to hurt me, but not for me to hurt him back?

I thought “Vengeance is mine”. Says the Lord.


Vengeance is mine, says the Lord

Oh, Ok.

So what do I do with this pain in my heart?

What do I do with this pain that’s so deep, it burns in my innermost


I can’t live with this pain anymore Lord. I need to get it out of me.

But, how?

“Come to me all you that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you


But I’ve come to you several times.

I’ve handed it over to you a million times.

I’ve surrendered all like a hundred times.


Not ALL?



Cast your burdens upon Jesus, for He cares for you.

Cast ALL your burdens on Him.


You can’t bear it – He can.


So do yourself a favour and hand it all over.


Ok Lord. I’ll try. Again.


You have to do better than try my dear.





Here’s some.


Ok, here’s most.

Still not good enough?

You do drive a hard bargain.

Well, it’s not easy.

It’s not easy at all, but here’s





For the final time, concerning this issue Lord, I surrender ALL.

Have your way, and let your perfect will be done.


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So, dear readers

What do you do when your heart /human self wants to do one thing but

your conscience/spirit self won’t let you?


Fight it?

Go ahead and do what you want anyway?

Surrender and admit you need help?


Or…something else?


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